Weigh In!!!!!!

Well, today was a great day! Actually, this week was pretty good too. I didn't necessarily have a great week as far as eating goes, but it's the non-scale victories that I was happy about! I had a few junk food cravings and gave in to some, others I got thru without failing miserably. But on Tuesday I went to Wal-Mart and tried on some clothes. This is something I haven't been real excited about the last few years. Actually, for a lot of years. But I wanted to see where I was at. And the great news is, I ended up buying a size 12 pair of jeans and some really cute shirts. And the better part is, the jeans actually fit! Yeah I know, it's one thing to buy them, another thing to actually be able to wear them. So I put them on yesterday for the first time after washing them. And I noticed they fit a tad bit loose. Not much, but enough to get me thinking about size 10's. So today I was in Shop-Ko returning a pair of pants that were too big for Kassie, so I decided to go try a pair of 10's. Now let me tell you, the 12's were stretch, so I was a little freaked out that I wasn't actually in 12's, but in reality they were more like 14's. So I grabbed a pair of 10's that weren't stretchy. I headed for the dreaded dressing room with those horrible mirrors that show every last flaw on your body. And I put those jeans on. And then I buttoned them. And then I zipped them. All without having to lay down on the bed and suck it in!!! (Yes, that's what I was doing a few months ago with 16's). If I wasn't in a public place, I think I would have started jumping and screaming. But I had to contain my excitement. I have not worn a pair of 10's in years. Even after losing my weight after having Gabe, I only fit into 12's. I really have to give it to the exercise. It has changed my body shape so, so much, it's unbelievable! I am completely blown away that I actually fit into a size 10! Now granted, they're a little tight, but I'm betting in a couple weeks they'll be comfortable. I'm still going to wear them now, because it'll make me stay on track. I hit that 1/2 way mark of 181.3 (plus another 1.3, so now I'm on the downhill slide. I'm also getting a treadmill Sunday! A friend of ours doesn't use it anymore, so she's selling it to me. I'm so excited about it, that it's going in my scrapbook room. Yes, my scrapbook room that I was so excited about but haven't used in the entire year we've lived here. So I figure I can use it daily, then if I ever take the time to do any scrapbooking, I can fold it up and slide it out of the way. I can't wait to see the day that I am ready to run a 5k with my friend Gina! I have hit every goal I've made except for my actual weight goal and running the 5k. I've hit my monthly goals (which today I hit my October goal 2 weeks early), I've hit my goal of not hating myself, I've hit my goal of wearing size 12 jeans and now I'm ready to work on my last 2 goals, run a 5k and getting down to 150 lbs.

I also had a great night last night. I went with Gina to the Weight Watchers meeting. For those of you who don't know, I have tried those darn meetings 3 or 4 different times in the last 4 years of living here. Now don't get me wrong, I know they work for thousands of people. But I just wasn't ready to lose weight when I went. I was just throwing my money away. I finally found my motivation in August, and I'm still focusing on "it". But I told Gina that sometime when I've lost a good amount of weight, I wanted to go to a meeting with her and let the leader see that I did it. And that night was last night. She was so happy to see my success, she gave me a huge hug, which surprised me, and she kept complimenting me. Then she sent me in to see her daughter (who is also the receptionist) and she was telling me how much of a difference she could see in my face, as well as my body. It felt great to go in there over 30 lbs. lighter and show them that I finally did it! So now I'll have to go in when I hit my final goal. I've also been getting a lot of compliments from everyone around me. I saw my mother-in-law today, who I haven't seen in a few weeks (normally we see her every week). She couldn't believe how much I've lost either, and I talk to her almost everyday. So it was good to finally get to see her and see her reaction. Now, I can't wait till we go to California for Thanksgiving! That's gonna be fun. The last time I was there, I was my heaviest and looked like a complete slob. I didn't want to go into the stores for fear of people that I knew from when I lived at home would see me. Now I'm going to go in to all the stores with my head held high. It's a great feeling to be confident. I haven't felt that in many, many years.

Anyway, enough of my book! I'm just excited and feel like sharing my success. So we'll see what happens next week! I'm gonna be in the 170's!!!! Woohoo!

10-17-08 (180) (-1.6) (Total loss -32.6) (-15.3%) (BMI: 27.4)
10-10-08 (181.6) (-3.4) (Total loss -31) (-14.6%) (BMI: 27.6)
10-3-08 (185) (-2.7) (Total loss -27.6) (-13%) (BMI: 28.1)
9-26-08 (187.7) (-3.4) (Total loss -24.9) (-11.7%) (BMI: 28.5)
9-19-08 (191.1) (-3) (Total loss -21.5) (-10.1%) (BMI: 29.1)
9-12-08 (194.1) (-1.6) (Total loss -18.5) (-8.7%) (BMI: 29.5)
9-5-08 (195.7) (-1.3) (Total loss -16.9) (-7.9%) (BMI: 29.8)
8-29-08 (197) (-4.2) (Total loss -15.6) (-7.3%) (BMI: 30)
8-22-08 (201.2) (-2.6) (Total loss -11.4) (-5.4%) (BMI: 30.6)
8-15-08 (203.8) (-5.4) (Total loss -8.8) (-4.1%) (BMI: 31)
8-8-08 (209.2) (-3.4) (Total loss -3.4) (1.6%) (BMI: 31.8)
8-5-08 (212.6) (Start) (BMI: 32.3)