Panic attack!!!

OK, so tomorrow is the Truffle Shuffle. I thought I'd be ready for it, but I'm so totally not! I was doing good running on my treadmill, but then I got this stupid cold, so I wasn't doing anything for several days. Then life got in the way, I lost my motivation completely, and have proceeded to gain back 5 1/2 pounds in one week!!! That is exactly my weight loss for the last 3 weeks. And I gained it in one week!!! Talk about frustrating!!! And now I still have some of the cold left, so when I run, it starts hurting. I keep telling myself it's only 2 miles, so I can make it. But we'll see how long it takes me. I guess because I've never done something like this, I'm really worked up over it. And not to mention my weight has not cooperated with me at all. I hate the feeling that I've had lately. I had such great motivation the first few months, but it's gone now. In more than one way. So it's been really hard. Maybe someday soon I'll get that motivation back.

2-5-09 (171.9) (+5.6) (Total loss -40.7) (-19.1%) (BMI: 26.1) (Week 26)
1-29-09 (166.3) (-3.3) (Total loss -46.3) (-21.8%) (BMI: 25.3) (Week 25)
1-22-09 (169.6) (-.9) (Total loss -43) (-20.2%) (BMI: 25.8) (Week 24)
1-15-09 (170.5) (-1.4) (Total loss -42.1) (-19.8%) (BMI: 25.9) (Week 23)
1-8-09 (171.9) (-1.1) (Total loss -40.7) (-19.1%) (BMI: 26.2) (Week 22)
1-1-09 (173) (-.7) (Total loss -39.6) (-18.6%) (BMI: 26.3) (Week 21)
12-25-08 (173.7) (+2.1) (Total loss -38.9) (-18.3%) (BMI: 26.4) (Week 20)
12-19-08 (171.6) (-.3) (Total loss -41) (-19.3%) (BMI: 26.1) (Week 19)
12-11-08 (171.9 (-.2) (Total loss -40.7) (-19.1%) (BMI: 26.1) (Week 18)
12-4-08 (172.1) (-0) (Total loss -40.5) (-19%) (BMI: 26.2) (Week 17)
11-27-08 (172.1) (-1.1) (Total loss -40.5) (-19%) (BMI: 26.2) (Week 16)
11-21-08 (173.2) (-3.3) (Total loss -39.4) (-18.5%) (BMI: 26.3) (Week 15)
11-14-08 (176.5) (-.3) (Total loss -36.1) (-17%) (BMI: 26.8) (Week 14)
11-7-08 (176.8) (+1.2) (Total loss -35.8) (-16.8%) (BMI: 26.9) (Week 13)
10-31-08 (175.6) (-2.3) (Total loss -37) (-17.4%) (BMI: 26.7) (Week 12)
10-24-08 (177.9) (-2.1) (Total loss -34.7) (-16.3%) (BMI: 27) (Week 11)
10-17-08 (180) (-1.6) (Total loss -32.6) (-15.3%) (BMI: 27.4) (Week 10)
10-10-08 (181.6) (-3.4) (Total loss -31) (-14.6%) (BMI: 27.6) (Week 9)
10-3-08 (185) (-2.7) (Total loss -27.6) (-13%) (BMI: 28.1) (Week 8)
9-26-08 (187.7) (-3.4) (Total loss -24.9) (-11.7%) (BMI: 28.5) (Week 7)
9-19-08 (191.1) (-3) (Total loss -21.5) (-10.1%) (BMI: 29.1) (Week 6)
9-12-08 (194.1) (-1.6) (Total loss -18.5) (-8.7%) (BMI: 29.5) (Week 5)
9-5-08 (195.7) (-1.3) (Total loss -16.9) (-7.9%) (BMI: 29.8) (Week 4)
8-29-08 (197) (-4.2) (Total loss -15.6) (-7.3%) (BMI: 30) (Week 3)
8-22-08 (201.2) (-2.6) (Total loss -11.4) (-5.4%) (BMI: 30.6) (Week 2)
8-15-08 (203.8) (-5.4) (Total loss -8.8) (-4.1%) (BMI: 31) (Week 1)
8-8-08 (209.2) (-3.4) (Total loss -3.4) (1.6%) (BMI: 31.8)
8-5-08 (212.6) (Start) (BMI: 32.3)