Pure stupidity

Well, I have screwed myself once again. I had every intention of doing really good this week and instead I gained almost 3 pounds. I am pretty mad at myself, but the way I ate this week, I should have expected it. I ate fast food almost everyday, I am back to drinking Pepsi again, and not working out as much. I can't figure out what my problem is, why I'm sabotaging myself. There is no good reason for me doing what I'm doing. Hawaii is a week away, and I'm 22 pounds away from my original Hawaii goal. Now my goal at this point is to just not gain anymore! This is ridiculous! Somehow I need to find my motivation, otherwise I'm gonna gain back everything I've worked so hard at to lose.

8-6-11 (197) (+2.7) (Total loss 15.3) (-7.2%) (BMI: 30)
7-30-11 (194.3) (-3) (Total loss 18) (-8.5%) (BMI: 29.5)
7-23-11 (197.3) (+4.3) (Total loss 15) (-7.1%) (BMI: 30)
7-16-11 (193) (-1.3) (Total loss 19.3) (-9.1%) (BMI: 29.3)
7-9-11 (194.3) (-.3) (Total loss 18) (-8.5%) (BMI: 29.5)
7-2-11 (194.6) (-3.8) (Total loss 17.7) (-8.3%) (BMI: 29.6)
6-25-11 (198.4) (-.2) (Total loss 13.9) (-6.5%) (BMI: 30.2)
6-18-11 (198.6) (-1.9) (Total loss 13.7) (-6.5%) (BMI: 30.2)
6-11-11 (200.5) (+1.1) (Total loss 11.8) (-5.6%) (BMI: 30.5)
6-4-11 (199.4) (-3.3) (Total loss 12.9) (-6.1%) (BMI: 30.3)
5-28-11 (202.7) (+.1) Total loss 9.6) (-4.5%) (BMI: 30.8)
5-21-11 (202.6) (+.8) (Total loss 9.7) (-4.6%) (BMI: 30.8)
5-14-11 (201.8) (-4.2) (Total loss 10.5) (-4.9%) (BMI: 30.7)
5-7-11 (206)(-.9) (Total loss 6.3) (-3%) (BMI: 31.1)
4-30-11 (206.9) (+1.2) (Total loss 5.4) (-2.5%) (BMI: 31.5)
4-23-11 (205.7) (+.2) (Total loss 6.6) (-3.1%) (BMI: 31.3)
4-16-11 (205.5) (-2.8) (Total loss 6.8) (-3.2%) (BMI: 31.2)
4-9-11 (208.3) (-1.4) (Total loss 4) (-1.9%) (BMI: 31.7)
4-2-11 (209.7) (+2.9) (Total loss 2.6) (-1.2%) (BMI: 31.9)
3-26-11 (206.8) (-2) (Total loss 5.5) (-2.6%) (BMI: 31.4)
3-19-11 (208.8) (+2.6) (Total loss 3.5) (-1.6%) (BMI: 31.7)
3-12-11 (206.2) (+2.3) (Total loss 6.1) (-2.9%) (BMI: 31.3)
3-5-11 (203.9) (-8.4) (Total loss 8.4) (-4%) (BMI: 31)
2-17-11 (212.3) (BMI: 32.3) (Highest in 2011, STARTING OVER)